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Day 5: Thursday
After yesterday's bad day, I had a couple of goals today to help out around the house by doing a couple of chores. I woke early (7:30), bathed and got ready. It is always a slow process for me in the morning, resting as I go. I didn't put make up on today because I wanted to conserve energy.My Handsome Man and I talked about going to the cinema later in the day and then I got up to try and do the washing up. About four dishes in to washing up he came to take over. Yesterday's bad day meant that if we wanted to have a cinema trip it wasn't a good idea for me to wash up.
It's hard not to feel guilty when you can't help out as much as you wish you can. I don't want all the household chores to fall to my husband. I know people who see it as a luxury and joke that they wish their husband did more around the house. After months of not really helping much, of every chore falling to someone else, of being waited on hand and foot, it is incredibly difficult to not feel like a burden.
I try to find hobbies to do that will benefit the family - a use for my time that will make me feel of worth and help me avoid sinking into a spiral of depression. Having M.E. got me in to photography. I could no longer join in the activities I used to, so now I take my camera along and try to snap photos of my friends and family having fun. It helps me feel involved. I use Project Life by Becky Higgins to document all my photos. I have to do it in short bursts otherwise I get a headache. Today when I couldn't wash up, I sat and slotted photos from January into photo pocket pages.
A friend popped over with some choccy melts, (delicious treats) which cheered me up and helped me stay positive. I talked My Handsome Man in to taking me to see Far From the Madding Crowd and I really enjoyed it. I haven't read the book but it made me want to. My Handsome Man wasn't looking forward to seeing the movie. He appreciated how well it was shot and said he didn't hate it - I call that a win.
Walking out of the cinema, my knee buckled, painfully. Luckily My Handsome Man stopped my fall. My knee suffered for it and I wasn't really able to put weight on it last night which meant that My Handsome Man volunteered to do dinner so I could sit with my leg up.
Thursday night is football night. My Handsome Man and a large group of friends gather to play football for an hour or two. Again, I was surrounded by all that I could possibly need in the evening. (He doesn't actually support Everton, to the confusion of all newcomers to Thursday Night Football)
When he got home we watched an episode (or 3) of a television show and then headed to bed.
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